Every once in a while I have a dream.. no, a nightmare... about Andy and cancer. You know the details.
These dreams are wracked with emotion. They're fairly vivid but it's not the vividness (is that a word?) of the dream that bothers me. It's the intense emotions involved. I wake up feeling completely drained of all emotion and energy. I spend the day being a zombie, or at the very least putting on a persona for the unwashed masses.
I had one the night before last. It ruined my day yesterday.
I had one last night. It hasn't ruined my day yet, but I can tell you I have a hopeless feeling and have no motivation whatsoever.
Back to work.