Sunday, January 27, 2008

New Ulcer, New Identity

Yeah. A new ulcer. I'm pretty sure. I'm going to call my doctor tomorrow, I think it's time for another endoscopy. It's been bothering me for a couple weeks now yet I continue to throw back the coffee and mountain dew Sat - Thurs and the Killians on Fri. I also continue to eat foods hot enough to kill a man in his 70s. And yes, I continue to put BBQ sauce on everything. Very spicy BBQ sauce. You get the idea.

I think that's coming to an end. I can't imagine myself not eating the heck out of spicy food, chasing it with a Mt. Dew. But oh well. I'm sick of the GI problems.

On a somewhat related note, I've been thinking a lot the last few weeks. Life stages. They happen. In my case every time I change a life stage it seems to start with a bit of an identity issue followed by a traumatic experince followed by a few years of mellowness before the next life stage change. By identity issue I mean I stop being myself.

Anyone who knows me knows that I haven't been me since some time in 2005, thereabouts.

Now a traumatic experience.

Now I'm starting to see the world in a different light.

My new golden rule: Do what you want as long as it doesn't bring harm to another person be it emotionally, physically, psychologically, or otherwise. Yes, that's wide open to interpretation.

In other words, Tim McGraw almost had it right. Kinda like Live Like You Were Dying. But not really. If you live like you're dying you'll probably wind up broke or in jail. Well maybe not you but I would. I'd wind up divorced, jobless, broke, and in prison. :) But seriously from now on I've decided that I'm going to live like I have about 5 years left. Careful enough, yet more open to things.

I'll stop asking "Why?" and start asking "Why not?" If I can't answer the latter, then do it!

Right now I want a chocolate chip cookie. Eating that cookie will bring no harm to anyone else. It won't bother my ulcer. It may add a few pounds but I'm willing to deal with that.

I'm going to go eat that cookie.

Nevermind. There goes my stomach again. I'm going to hit the couch. The pain is unbearable at the moment. Considering an ER trip. But no, it's just an ulcer, I've had them before. I'll drink water and lie on my belly.

Hi Dave! Good to see ya!


Anonymous said...

I do not think you can ever stop asking why. One thing about GenXer's is their constant questioning of everything. That is why older generations have a hard time with us. They were brought up to never question, just do as you were told and/or follow orders. We are an entirely different breed. Combine questioning with a general addictive personality and you have us! far as the ulcer....could the 37 Bud Lights Friday have had any help in your discomfort??
Just for the record....Danny admitted to me and his wife that he enjoyed Don Dokken (and his life partner). He even said it was kool. My God on thing we know he will be playing Keno, whistling Winger and wearing a Maple Leaf jersey!

Anonymous said...

Could not agree with you more! Life can change in a blink of an eye. Live for this moment, for today.Tomorrow may not come.If you are lucky enough to see tomorrow then give thanks to the man upstairs. I bet he even appreciates a thank you now and then. :)